Epiphany

So last night, driving home from playing board games with my sister in law and her husband, I had an epiphany. I have the best kids I could ever hope for. They were made specifically for me. My first was born a hardcore melancholy to get me used to the idea of having more kids. I understand him so much more than I understand the other two because he is so much like me. 

My second was born a straight up choleric. She is feisty and rebellious, also like me. However, I have to learn new ways to handle her attitude and her personality as I have zero choleric in me. She keeps me on my toes and guessing every step of the way. She's probably also the reason i lose so much of my hair nowadays... haha! 

And my third baby. From the day she was born we knew she had a sanguine personality. She loves to be around people, be the center of attention and smiles whenever you give her even the slightest time of day. She will smile and giggle until I do as well, and she makes my days seem a little brighter even if I am struggling. 

These babies were meant for me, each one of them with their own way of making my days better, and I couldn't have asked for better babies. I love each of them with all my heart. 

Now, onto other things! I have recently begun gaining a lot of weight out of nowhere. So it is time to buckle down and be serious. I thought I was before but I have been missing something. As of today I will be working on a new weight loss plan to vamp up my body! I have been super low on energy, we have found I am anemic, so I have to take a lot of iron every day which I have not. (For shame). I will be replenishing that soon. 

Some of my medications that keep me sane have a side effect of weight loss. Sadly, that has been a super big issue but I cannot be off these meds or I go nutsy-cuckoo. I will be seeing my doctor soon to see if we can adjust something to help with it. I have to do something though, because I would like to live to see my kids graduate from school, live their lives and one day maybe have grandbabies. 

So sit down, buckle up and shut it cuz here we go!!! 

Party!!!

David had his very own first Halloween party tonight! And even though he only had a few people here, he was so happy! He even told mommy his treats and decorations were perfect.

A lot of people take to granted the smile they put in their child's face. But for this mommy, it meant the world to know he was proud of his party and had so much fun.

Now all we have to worry about is tummy aches in the morning haha! Happy Halloween everyone!!

OB Appointment

I am a little bit of one freaked out momma. So far this week we had a severe eczema breakout on miss Omi, (Naomi), then last night she pulled an empty book shelf down on top of herself. Can you imagine hearing a crash, a tiny scream and looking over to see your tiny two year old daughter squished under a bookshelf and pinned by her arm??

I ran to her, pulled her out from under the bookshelf and held her until she calmed down. I checked each limb, her tummy and her head and eyes very carefully only to find a bright red mark on one side of her face. She was just fine, other than scared. Needless to say mommy nearly had a heart attack herself. I was shaking so bad I'm sure she felt it. She was fine after some cuddles and Motrin and an oatmeal bath.

Then today we had an ob appointment to check on Baby Girl. I am once again being monitored because of my blood pressure, I have something called SPD (symphisis pubis dysfunction) and the doctor is concerned I may be developing preeclampsia. So for the next week I get to log my blood pressure three times a day. The SPD is the pubic bone loosening it's ligaments early and basically just wiggling around causing pain and agony until I have the baby.

So wish us all luck, hope we don't break anything else and keep us in your thoughts. We need it for sure!

Small Things

There are small things in life that make you think, make you cry, make you smile. They make you realize thing you didn't before. My kids have their ways of making me realize things. Music has it's way of calming me. Husband has his way of driving me bonkers.

Naomi has begun crying and falling apart when one of us leaves for work. I'm beginning to think she may have some form of abandonment or separation anxiety that's worse than normal for a smallish one. Since she stopped going to daycare she has stopped a majority of her tantrums and has been on pretty good behavior. So it begs the question for me: Is she feeling like the baby is going to take her place??

David has started whining a lot more. Especially when we tell him no to something. He has also started getting upset about us working. Even though we explained that on order to get Christmas presents we have to.

Cody and I have both been getting stressed out more. Me mostly because I'm hurting and tired, him because he's stressed about work and money.

I've realized that my comfort zone lies within the music of Michael Jackson. Funny huh? I grew up listening to him and ultimately the music has become a staple to my mental health haha.

I'm working on some thoughts for the kiddos, to help them adjust to the new baby and be more involved with me and the baby and daddy. Hopefully it will help. Things like getting days out on their own with mommy or daddy, trips as a family to the park and the pool. Stuff like that.

Well that's what I have for now, enjoy the cute picture of the kiddos listening for their sister on my belly!

Doctors Again

At the instacare again! This time for mister David. He went to bed with a small cough and woke up in the middle of the night with a full blown fever, cough and sore throat. We are hoping it's not strep, otherwise mommy is in big trouble! When mommy gets strep, it's gets bad.

It sucks because today is mister Davids big picture day. They have a make up day but we were so excited for picture day! He even had his favorite shirt picked out and his nice pants ironed and ready to go.

Hopefully it's nothing major so we can at least get pictures done today. Otherwise he has to wait until November 2nd.

Naomi is doing a little better, she's as crazy as ever with her silly giggles and shenanigans. We have had to give her melatonin the last few nights to help her sleep though, so we may be taking her in soon for a sleep study of some kind. She doesn't seem to be getting enough sleep or even going to sleep very easily. She struggled with staying asleep all last night too.

Daddy is having tummy issues, and it looks like he will have to start getting tests done soon too. He's been pretty miserable and dad sad because of it.

Mommy just can't get enough sleep with all this going on, and it's making the pain in my belly worse, I'm always nauseous and dizzy now and it's making life hard. It seems when it rains it pours for our little family. We are hoping things level out soon and everyone starts feeling better!!! It bothers a mommy when her whole family feels icky and there's not much to be done about it.

Daycare and Upset Tummies

So my daughter Naomi doesn't seem to like daycare. At all. When we get her ready to go she starts to cry and throw tantrums. But when shes inside and we leave she seems to be okay.

This morning I was getting her shoes on and she realized where she was going. Suddenly she starts crying and saying she's sleepy and needs to go back to bed. She literally went to sleep in my lap so I wouldn't take her. When I took her no one opened the door so she ended up staying home and has been happy and on her best behavior since. Anyone else had these issues? What did you do about it?

She has been saying her tummy hurts today since we got home too. She was sick two nights ago but has not been since. I told her to lay on daddy's pillow so she picked it up, put it on mommy and laid on it. She's a turkey!

David is doing well since his lockdown at school. He is ready for picture day tomorrow, when I will post a picture of how handsome he looks for his big picture taking!

One Scary Afternoon

Can you imagine losing your child to someone bent on creating chaos and fear? I can. And it scares the hell out of me. Today, my son's school was locked down and evacuated due to a bomb threat. We didn't know until his grandpa went to pick him up from school, and found they had been evacuated to a nearby city building. Below is the press release from the sheriffs department:

http://www.utahcounty.gov/Dept/Sheriff/Media/PressReleaseArchiveDetails.asp?ID=149468

Knowing he was home safe was enough until I found out why his school was on lockdown. The man that was on the school ground had threatened to detonate explosives and weirdly told the office to evacuate the school.

So many things have gone through my head since finding out about this man and following the events that unfolded over the afternoon and evening. Fear, mostly, and hurt. Hurt for my son, who does not deserve to live in the fear I constantly live in, knowing we aren't safe anywhere at any time.

What if the man had not let the children go? What if he actually did have explosives and detonated them? My son's classroom was right in front where his alleged explosives would have decimated the front of the school. What if his child was not attending the school and what if it had been more than just him?? These are some of the things that have reverberated through my mind many times tonight.

We are safe at home. But my question has to do with the man's motive. It supposedly had to do with race. What does that have to do with an empty school? Why threaten a school filled with children, then let them go, to get something across to adults that hasn't gotten through before any way? And why threaten the school your child goes to? He had no weapons, no explosives, no leverage other than a threat.

My fear of sending my children to school was solidified today. With all the threats, attacks and craziness, why should we send our kids to be possible cannon fodder for nutjobs like these people?? Everyone tells me not to live in fear of what ifs but lately what ifs have become reality more than not.

Yet a ray of sunshine still burns bright. My children are safe. I am watching them sleep, happy and oblivious. We were blessed today. By who or what I don't know but we were blessed. My son came home safe, he has no fear because he was not told of what was actually going on, and we had a happy evening together with family. We are staying with his aunt and uncle just to be away for a bit for mommy to calm down and hopefully me go of some of that fear.

My family is still whole. I can't say that for everyone, especially those in other recent attacks, and my heart hurts for them. But my family was spared today. If that's not something to be thankful for I don't know what is. And I am extremely grateful to all the school faculty that took such wonderful care of our children and kept them safe.

Hug your family tonight. Tell them you love them. I know I did.